Who Goes to a Yoga Teacher Training?

When I came to my teacher training I thought I knew what to expect.  I made assumptions (and that’s always dangerous, right?) about the kind of people who would be there with me. I figured it would be lots of women and a few men (I was right about that.) I thought I would be the oldest one (that part I got right too!) and I thought everyone else would be some version of the Perfect Yogi or Yogini: the slim athletic flexible ones you see in class who can do every pose to the ultimate expression. Name any body part, any at all, and they can get their toes on top of it, wrap both arms around it, or balance on it, all with the grace of Barishnikov. These are the yogis I admire for their ability and their beauty, and I try not to be envious.  If I can’t do it myself, hey, at least I can see what it’s supposed to look like! I was resigned to being the slightly out of shape older gal in the back of the room just doing my best and trying to keep up, sitting out while they all do the poses that are impossible for me.

And I was wrong.

The participants in this training are here for various personal reasons, and almost all of them are in a point of major transition in their lives. Just like me. There is the newly divorced single mother whose experience in beating cancer has inspired her to lead healing retreats with yoga as a component. There is the sweet pretty nineteen year old who has recently started having irregular heartbeats and is afraid she won’t awaken each morning; pursuing her health through yoga is a way to beat her fears and strengthen her body and spirit. There are other young people who have discovered that yoga is a way to change their lives and they want to share this with others. One woman just got out of the Army; another just lost her father. A few have reached out to the training after spending time in Ashrams studying meditation.  In an uncertain world, the tender souls who have gathered here to study yoga philosophy and learn how to share the gift with others are all on personal paths to change, and yoga is merely an accessory.

Through the journey of yoga, in each step of the eight fold path, we are all finding  access to deeper places in ourselves. We are searching for many things: peace, calm, health, fitness, knowledge.  We are connecting with each other and reaching out in new ways. We laugh, we cry. We grow. It happens during yoga, it’s through yoga, but it isn’t always about the yoga.

How did I not know that?

For I know that in my own journey, yoga is not the only thing that matters. It’s a piece of the whole. Yoga is an ingredient in the pie, but it’s not the pie. I am. Yoga is a rainbow to slide down and I am the pot of gold. 

And just for the record, I am not the old lady in the back watching everyone else. I’m keeping up, following the flow. I’m getting into poses I never dreamed I could, and when I do watch others, I am noticing that we all have our body types, young or old, that make it easy or hard to do each particular asanas, and its different for every one of us. I see changes in us, even after a week. Teenagers or in our forties, we help each other. Here we are all unique.  And we are all the same.

The smile on my face when  I shakily raised my forty-nine year old legs up into the air in headstand – for the first time in my life –  was just as radiant as the smile, half a lifetime ago, after my first kiss. But this feeling, I know, is for keeps.

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About catnipkiss

I am a writer who is working on a travel memoir. I write about issues that speak to my soul: love, sex, yoga, spirituality, body image, dating and friendship, and more as it comes up! I love comments - thanks! What would YOU like to explore?
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2 Responses to Who Goes to a Yoga Teacher Training?

  1. harriet bissell says:

    You are not the only one who can be intimidated by the younger and fitter. A friend told me that she wasn’t interested in taking a yoga class from a 20 year old (she is in her sixties). To me, that is another wonderful thing about yoga – it is adaptable unlike things like basketball, handball. As in life, you learn to set your own limits.

    • catnipkiss says:

      very true! Yoga can be for everyone! I kept up pretty well with most the 20 something guys and gals there. Maybe your friend would take a class from ME 🙂

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